Heyo every one! Not such an emo post today! xD
Today I will be writing than no other than my legendary new boss called Mr.Sing he's legendary and is a genuine kinda guy he gave us coke and burger king I was like no waiz! Nom nom nom <3~
Had to sort out the shop floor today, took ages seeing as the place was a horrible mess pile so we cleaned it up and I had to do alot of the high up work seeing as every one at work is short! xD
Well, other than that I requested more hours at the shop hopefully I'll pull an extra 10 hours meaning I'll bring in a nice 440 a month with out over time so yea that should be all good and stuffs. I dont think I should take more hours than that untill I get used to working again.
This has been another possibly insightful look into my life! Lol ¬.¬
Till next tiems! BAII!
Sunday, 13 January 2008
Sunday, 30 December 2007
Suicidal Tendencies
Yeap, another emo style post where I rant and rave about how shit my life is and how much I will my self to die in stupid ways, best kind of rant ever.
xmas was lame as always, it'll never be the same with out my dad so I dont really bother wish such stupid lame holidays. My emotions are stupid and misleading and I generally wish life would hurry up and move as I'm still wanting to move on in life.
Well any way, off to do more retarded self hatey things.
xmas was lame as always, it'll never be the same with out my dad so I dont really bother wish such stupid lame holidays. My emotions are stupid and misleading and I generally wish life would hurry up and move as I'm still wanting to move on in life.
Well any way, off to do more retarded self hatey things.
Monday, 17 December 2007
Looking for the right one
Didnt really know what to put for a title so I just randomly put what ever came into my head...
Today I'll be writing about non other than my self and what I've been planning to do...
Well, looking for a job isn't going as well as I was hopping to seeing as every where I apply sends back "You need to have previous experience to work here" I ask my self "If no one is willing to accept some one with no exp how the hell are workers like me supposed to gain this needed experience?" So yeah I'm still trying hard to find a job so I can move to Swindon soon.
And for some reason lately I've been feeling rather off with my girlfriend, I have no idea why and its very upsetting for me as I don't want another Marie kinda thing like feeling trapped. It's true that you only love once and I'm almost certain what me and Raine have is love but then I question it when she was to be married this year with one of her ex's its not that I think she would cheat on me. I just feel that she wants me around to be nice to her and be more of a friend than any thing else. I am a complete mess once more and I'm really tired of having to pick my self up all over again even with a partner.
I just wish she'd be there for me a little when I need support like I do for her ya'know? Either way I feel very alone and unwanted even as I am in this relationship. Some times during a phone call she'l say "I do love you ya'know?" and that always hits it home that maybe she really does love me. But then I dono... I am so mixed up and unconfident in any thing and any one.
Well thats another random look into my rather lame life so yea...
Today I'll be writing about non other than my self and what I've been planning to do...
Well, looking for a job isn't going as well as I was hopping to seeing as every where I apply sends back "You need to have previous experience to work here" I ask my self "If no one is willing to accept some one with no exp how the hell are workers like me supposed to gain this needed experience?" So yeah I'm still trying hard to find a job so I can move to Swindon soon.
And for some reason lately I've been feeling rather off with my girlfriend, I have no idea why and its very upsetting for me as I don't want another Marie kinda thing like feeling trapped. It's true that you only love once and I'm almost certain what me and Raine have is love but then I question it when she was to be married this year with one of her ex's its not that I think she would cheat on me. I just feel that she wants me around to be nice to her and be more of a friend than any thing else. I am a complete mess once more and I'm really tired of having to pick my self up all over again even with a partner.
I just wish she'd be there for me a little when I need support like I do for her ya'know? Either way I feel very alone and unwanted even as I am in this relationship. Some times during a phone call she'l say "I do love you ya'know?" and that always hits it home that maybe she really does love me. But then I dono... I am so mixed up and unconfident in any thing and any one.
Well thats another random look into my rather lame life so yea...
Monday, 10 December 2007
How it went.
This is just an update post to confirm that I am actually moving in the new year to Swindon with my girlfriend. It'l be a new start and should do me the world of good to do so, my mum has taken it well and was not very supportive/nasty about it I just hope it hasen't upset her too much on the inside as there's nothing else I can do for her other than re-assure her that if things get too rough I can head home and stuff.
Thats all thats new on the battle front of my life, new post coming soon~
Thats all thats new on the battle front of my life, new post coming soon~
Friday, 7 December 2007
The last few days
Soon some time this month I will be moving to Swindon to create a new life for my self, some will be happy and others not so. I've been wanting to move for a long time, most people haven't ever really got to know me enough to see how un-happy I am in Norwich.
I feel a fresh start will do me the world of good and will help me move on in life, I do feel like I've been stuck in a continuous cycle for a long time now and as Emo Park say "Breaking The Habbit" and thats my reasoning for moving, It's not because I dislike how I am living at the moment. But I'm not exactly happy either, so I'm doing something about it and moving, also I'm moving to live with my girlfriend which I think is also fair, I love her to pieces and to have her crying because I have to go home each time I visit is simply not good enough for my standards. Of-course I will visit all my friends when I can and have them come visit me also.
So now I have to tell my mum who wont like it and call me the devil son because I dare to do what i want. I will move regardless of what she says. I won't be stuck in Norwich a day longer than I have to.
and thats my ranty side of things.
Now for the intermission... GO GET YOUR SELF SOME SNACKS!!
PERHAPS A CARBONATED SODA?
Any way here I go with whats coming up for me and junks.
So my epic adventure to Swindon begins with me narrowly making the last train there (thank god for epic sprinting legs of awesome) I make it to Swindon earlier than anticipated and had to wait for an hour before my queen appeared before me in a lovely Lolita dress and top, I was dragged to a random goth club, but unfortunately for me I was neither dressed or prepared for such an occasion and looked kinda dumb ass the whole time (when am I not though? xD)
The next day... Raine had work so I had to do my usual chill out thing in Asda It was cool, I watched the security guards throw out some chavy guys for being retards and junk the day passed quickly thankfully. Unfortunately poor Raine was sent home early because she was rather ill (Sick, although I think it was all the excitement of being with me again) she decided to become a member of block busters and we rented out some movies, 28 weeks later, The House Of The Dead and The Reaping though to be fair the only good movies we rented was The Reaping 28 weeks was a huge disappointment and really let the first movie down. House of the dead's DVD was too badly scratched and didnt play too well (it was pretty lame any way) Raine had also brought a couple of DVD's for her self they were Reeka and Pulse, these movies were awesome and really shit me up at points although both had rather lame endings.
Next day was a rather awesome, A couple of Raine's friends Ryan and Shaun came to pick us up and we all went to Bermingham Although when we got there we soon got bored as they decided to play games instead of chill with us, in the end we decided to head home and we watched a couple more of the movies Raine had.
Went into town the next day and Raine got some random Loli/goth clothes which were awesome and I managed to persuade her to buy this really awesome hat it really made the look I think ^_^ also got to talk to Mark (Raine's dad) and Bev (Raine's step mum) I think I left them with a good impression which meant alot to me seeing as I like to think I have good manners and stuffs.
I was supposed to go home on the Wednesday but I decided to enjoy my self and hang back an extra day I also did more chatting to Raine's dad Mark and he said that I could live with them for a while if I wanted to move to Swindon which is why my decision to move really hit home at last I can finally move on with life.
And what is now yesterday (1:23 as I write this part) With new hope and happiness in my heart I headed home to tell my mother what I was planning to pack and head back asap. For some reason it took me 7 hours to get home and when I actually made it home I was too tired for a confrontation with my mother so I'll be telling her later today I think. I know she wont like and will hate me for a long time but I gotta move on at some point.
Well here's hoping today goes well and my mum actually accepts my decision
I feel a fresh start will do me the world of good and will help me move on in life, I do feel like I've been stuck in a continuous cycle for a long time now and as Emo Park say "Breaking The Habbit" and thats my reasoning for moving, It's not because I dislike how I am living at the moment. But I'm not exactly happy either, so I'm doing something about it and moving, also I'm moving to live with my girlfriend which I think is also fair, I love her to pieces and to have her crying because I have to go home each time I visit is simply not good enough for my standards. Of-course I will visit all my friends when I can and have them come visit me also.
So now I have to tell my mum who wont like it and call me the devil son because I dare to do what i want. I will move regardless of what she says. I won't be stuck in Norwich a day longer than I have to.
and thats my ranty side of things.
Now for the intermission... GO GET YOUR SELF SOME SNACKS!!
PERHAPS A CARBONATED SODA?
Any way here I go with whats coming up for me and junks.
So my epic adventure to Swindon begins with me narrowly making the last train there (thank god for epic sprinting legs of awesome) I make it to Swindon earlier than anticipated and had to wait for an hour before my queen appeared before me in a lovely Lolita dress and top, I was dragged to a random goth club, but unfortunately for me I was neither dressed or prepared for such an occasion and looked kinda dumb ass the whole time (when am I not though? xD)
The next day... Raine had work so I had to do my usual chill out thing in Asda It was cool, I watched the security guards throw out some chavy guys for being retards and junk the day passed quickly thankfully. Unfortunately poor Raine was sent home early because she was rather ill (Sick, although I think it was all the excitement of being with me again) she decided to become a member of block busters and we rented out some movies, 28 weeks later, The House Of The Dead and The Reaping though to be fair the only good movies we rented was The Reaping 28 weeks was a huge disappointment and really let the first movie down. House of the dead's DVD was too badly scratched and didnt play too well (it was pretty lame any way) Raine had also brought a couple of DVD's for her self they were Reeka and Pulse, these movies were awesome and really shit me up at points although both had rather lame endings.
Next day was a rather awesome, A couple of Raine's friends Ryan and Shaun came to pick us up and we all went to Bermingham Although when we got there we soon got bored as they decided to play games instead of chill with us, in the end we decided to head home and we watched a couple more of the movies Raine had.
Went into town the next day and Raine got some random Loli/goth clothes which were awesome and I managed to persuade her to buy this really awesome hat it really made the look I think ^_^ also got to talk to Mark (Raine's dad) and Bev (Raine's step mum) I think I left them with a good impression which meant alot to me seeing as I like to think I have good manners and stuffs.
I was supposed to go home on the Wednesday but I decided to enjoy my self and hang back an extra day I also did more chatting to Raine's dad Mark and he said that I could live with them for a while if I wanted to move to Swindon which is why my decision to move really hit home at last I can finally move on with life.
And what is now yesterday (1:23 as I write this part) With new hope and happiness in my heart I headed home to tell my mother what I was planning to pack and head back asap. For some reason it took me 7 hours to get home and when I actually made it home I was too tired for a confrontation with my mother so I'll be telling her later today I think. I know she wont like and will hate me for a long time but I gotta move on at some point.
Well here's hoping today goes well and my mum actually accepts my decision
Wednesday, 28 November 2007
Akantor the last wyvern
Formally known as Akamu or Bastidon this creature ended up being called Akantor for the Europian version of MH2. This creature was allegedly able to kill a player in one hit which turned out to be a whole lot of rubbish it DOES have such a move but its far too slow and leaving him very vulnerable to attacks while shooting his wind like breath of epic fail. The first few attempts with my good friend Dingo left us stumped on how to fell such a power house leaving us with only a hunger of want and revenge. Eventually with a little trial and error (and a whole lot of armour change and skill jewels) we managed to kick his ass and send him packing to hell.
Then today as I was chilling at a friends house I decided to do something I would not regret. With a little preparation and a whole lot of courage I decided to take on the Akantor my self and royally ended its horrible life. Breaking both its tusks and chopping its tail from its body it fell to the floor exhausted and defeated. I stood in triumph and a little shocked to have archived such a feat. I left for home once more and decided to hang my armor and swords up for a while. Its good to feel safe and for the rest of the hunters out there that still live in Pokke Village may their hunts go well and may they keep the town safe always and forever...
Any way real me post now once again I hope all is well with the few that read this and hope life is treating you well. Once again I am worried for my girlfriend as shes still not having a good go of things I hope she gets a new job soon as her currant one is really bringing her down, I worry that it's affecting me and her as a couple too she seems to have horrific mood swings. I also worry that I'm going to mess it all up some how and end up alone once more...
Any way phone call this Friday leaves me anxious and hopping for the best, I just dono what that is yet... till then this post is over...
Baiii ^_^
Then today as I was chilling at a friends house I decided to do something I would not regret. With a little preparation and a whole lot of courage I decided to take on the Akantor my self and royally ended its horrible life. Breaking both its tusks and chopping its tail from its body it fell to the floor exhausted and defeated. I stood in triumph and a little shocked to have archived such a feat. I left for home once more and decided to hang my armor and swords up for a while. Its good to feel safe and for the rest of the hunters out there that still live in Pokke Village may their hunts go well and may they keep the town safe always and forever...
Any way real me post now once again I hope all is well with the few that read this and hope life is treating you well. Once again I am worried for my girlfriend as shes still not having a good go of things I hope she gets a new job soon as her currant one is really bringing her down, I worry that it's affecting me and her as a couple too she seems to have horrific mood swings. I also worry that I'm going to mess it all up some how and end up alone once more...
Any way phone call this Friday leaves me anxious and hopping for the best, I just dono what that is yet... till then this post is over...
Baiii ^_^
Tuesday, 20 November 2007
This will be an epic post and by epic I mean...
HOLY FREAKIN FOOZAMABOOBS EPIC!
I dono what actually makes this post epic I guess its just me posting due to boredum, either way I have epic tales from the land of Monster Hunter 2 regarding the epic take down of a Rajang and our horrible defeat from the claws of a G rank Shen Gao Ren, he managed to break our defences and lay waste to the town unfortunatly we now have to help repair the whole thing which will cost us alot of time effort and money. In other news I have aquired many new rare items such as Rathalos and Rathian plates along with Rubys and such this will help my cause for finding new and exciting weapons and armour.
And now for the real me post
Hello every one hope all is well with you.
Recently things haven't been so good. I am confused on the front of my girlfriend and my self we were planning to move together some where in swindon but she came out with a I don't think you should move and basicly "I'm going to move in with one of my X's." Although I trust her I fear I may probably lose her at this point... So it's not going very well for me at all, I am un sure weither I will go to her for xmas because of this... My mind is clouded with doubt and upsetness.
I hope to find my self with my old job soon or I will probably be royaly fricked and have to find some way to make money or something I refuse to sign on at this stage in my life.
Welps, I hope something good happens to me soon, I'm starting to loose my will once more and it even lead to me selfharming once again! my poor arm will bleed and pain me once more probably over xmas, yay for long sleeve shirts and junks is all I can say.
Any way. Another fun filled post full of emo-y goodness.
Till next time viewers...
I dono what actually makes this post epic I guess its just me posting due to boredum, either way I have epic tales from the land of Monster Hunter 2 regarding the epic take down of a Rajang and our horrible defeat from the claws of a G rank Shen Gao Ren, he managed to break our defences and lay waste to the town unfortunatly we now have to help repair the whole thing which will cost us alot of time effort and money. In other news I have aquired many new rare items such as Rathalos and Rathian plates along with Rubys and such this will help my cause for finding new and exciting weapons and armour.
And now for the real me post
Hello every one hope all is well with you.
Recently things haven't been so good. I am confused on the front of my girlfriend and my self we were planning to move together some where in swindon but she came out with a I don't think you should move and basicly "I'm going to move in with one of my X's." Although I trust her I fear I may probably lose her at this point... So it's not going very well for me at all, I am un sure weither I will go to her for xmas because of this... My mind is clouded with doubt and upsetness.
I hope to find my self with my old job soon or I will probably be royaly fricked and have to find some way to make money or something I refuse to sign on at this stage in my life.
Welps, I hope something good happens to me soon, I'm starting to loose my will once more and it even lead to me selfharming once again! my poor arm will bleed and pain me once more probably over xmas, yay for long sleeve shirts and junks is all I can say.
Any way. Another fun filled post full of emo-y goodness.
Till next time viewers...
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